You might hear that certain teachers are really good and so you go
to receive teachings from Thai Ajahns, Zen masters and others. It
seems to me you've probably had enough teaching, but the tendency
is to always want to hear more, to compare and to end up in doubt
as a result. Then each successive teacher increases your confusion
further. There's a story of a wanderer in the Buddha's time that was
in this kind of situation. He went to one teacher after the next,
hearing their different explanations and learning their methods. He
was trying to learn meditation but was only increasing his perplexity.
His travels finally brought him to the teacher Gotama, and he described
his predicament to the Buddha.
''Doing as you have been doing will not bring an end to doubt and
confusion'', the Buddha told him. ''At this time, let go of the
past; whatever you may or may not have done, whether it was right
or wrong, let go of that now.
''The future has not yet come. Do not speculate over it at all,
wondering how things may turn out. Let go of all such disturbing ideas
- it is merely thinking.
''Letting go of past and future, look at the present. Then you
will know the Dhamma. You may know the words spoken by various teachers,
but you still do not know your own mind. The present moment is empty;
look only at arising and ceasing of sankhārā
(formations). See that they are impermanent, unsatisfactory and empty
of self. See that they really are thus. Then you will not be concerned
with the past or the future. You will clearly understand that the
past is gone and the future has not yet arrived. Contemplating in
the present, you will realize that the present is the result of the
past. The results of past actions are seen in the present.
''The future has not yet come. Whatever does occur in the future
will arise and pass away in the future; there is no point in worrying
over it now, as it has not yet occurred. So contemplate in the present.
The present is the cause of the future. If you want a good future,
create good in the present, increasing your awareness of what you
do in the present. The future is the result of that. The past is the
cause and the future is the result of the present.
''Knowing the present, one knows the past and the future. Then
one lets go of the past and the future, knowing they are gathered
in the present moment.''
Understanding this, that wanderer made up his mind to practice as
the Buddha advised, putting things down. Seeing ever more clearly,
he realized many kinds of knowledge, seeing the natural order of things
with his own wisdom. His doubts ended. He put down the past and the
future and everything appeared in the present. This was eko dhammo,
the one Dhamma. Then it was no longer necessary for him to carry his
begging bowl up mountains and into forests in search of understanding.
If he did go somewhere, he went in a natural way, not out of desire
for something. If he stayed put, he was staying in a natural way,
not out of desire.
Practicing in that way, he became free of doubt. There was nothing
to add to his practice, nothing to remove. He dwelt in peace, without
anxiety over past or future. This was the way the Buddha taught.
But it's not just a story about something that happened long ago.
If we at this time practice correctly, we can also gain realization.
We can know the past and the future because they are gathered at this
one point, the present moment. If we look to the past we won't know.
If we look to the future we won't know, because that is not where
the truth is; it exists here, in the present.
Thus the Buddha said, ''I am enlightened through my own efforts,
without any teacher.'' Have you read this story? A wanderer of another
sect asked him, ''Who is your teacher?'' The Buddha answered,
''I have no teacher. I attained enlightenment by myself.'' But
that wanderer just shook his head and went away. He thought the Buddha
was making up a story and so he had no interest in what he said. He
thought it was not possible to achieve anything without a teacher
and guide.
It's like this: You study with a spiritual teacher and he tells you
to give up greed and anger. He tells you they are harmful and that
you need to get rid of them. Then you may practice and do that. But
getting rid of greed and anger didn't come about just because he taught
you; you had to actually practice and do that. Through practice you
came to realize something for yourself. You see greed in your mind
and give it up. You see anger in your mind and give it up. The teacher
doesn't get rid of them for you. He tells you about getting rid of
them, but it doesn't happen just because he tells you. You do the
practice and come to realization. You understand these things for
yourself.
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