At one time I went to see Venerable Ajahn Mun7. At that time I had just begun to practice. I had read the Pubbasikkhā8 and could understand that fairly well. Then I went on to read the
Visuddhimagga, where the author writes of the Sīlaniddesa
(Book of Precepts), Samādhiniddesa (Book of Mind-Training)
and Paññānidesa (Book of Understanding).... I felt my
head was going to burst! After reading that, I felt that it was beyond
the ability of a human being to practice. But then I reflected that
the Buddha would not teach something that is impossible to practice.
He wouldn't teach it and he wouldn't declare it, because those things
would be useful neither to himself nor to others. The Sīlaniddesa
is extremely meticulous, the Samādhiniddesa more so,
and the Paññāniddesa even more so! I sat and thought,
''Well, I can't go any further. There's no way ahead.'' It was
as if I'd reached a dead-end.
At this stage I was struggling with my practice... I was stuck. It
so happened that I had a chance to go and see Venerable Ajahn Mun,
so I asked him: ''Venerable Ajahn, what am I to do? I've just begun
to practice but I still don't know the right way. I have so many doubts
I can't find any foundation at all in the practice.''
He asked, ''What's the problem?''
''In the course of my practice I picked up the Visuddhimagga
and read it, but it seems impossible to put into practice. The contents
of the Sīlaniddesa, Samādhiniddesa
and Paññāniddesa seem to be completely impractical.
I don't think there is anybody in the world who could do it, it's
so detailed and meticulous. To memorize every single rule would be
impossible, it's beyond me.''
He said to me: ''Venerable... there's a lot, it's true, but it's
really only a little. If we were to take account of every training
rule in the Sīlaniddesa that would be difficult...
true.... But actually, what we call the Sīlaniddesa
has evolved from the human mind. If we train this mind to have a sense
of shame and a fear of wrong-doing, we will then be restrained, we
will be cautious....
''This will condition us to be content with little, with few wishes,
because we can't possibly look after a lot. When this happens our
sati becomes stronger. We will be able to maintain sati
at all times. Wherever we are we will make the effort to maintain
thorough sati. Caution will be developed. Whatever you doubt
don't say it, don't act on it. If there's anything you don't understand,
ask the teacher. Trying to practice every single training rule would
indeed be burdensome, but we should examine whether we are prepared
to admit our faults or not. Do we accept them?''
This teaching is very important. It's not so much that we must know
every single training rule, if we know how to train our own minds.
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