This mind of ours must be further trained. We can't just let it be.
It's a condition of nature... train it to realize that it's a condition
of nature. Improve on nature so that it's appropriate to our needs,
which is Dhamma. Dhamma is something which must be practiced and brought
within.
If you don't practice you won't know. Frankly speaking, you won't
know the Dhamma by just reading it or studying it. Or if you do know
it your knowledge is still defective. For example, this spittoon here.
Everybody knows it's a spittoon but they don't fully know the spittoon.
Why don't they fully know it? If I called this spittoon a saucepan,
what would you say? Suppose that every time I asked for it I said,
''Please bring that saucepan over here,'' that would confuse you.
Why so? Because you don't fully know the spittoon. If you did there
would be no problem. You would simply pick up that object and hand
it to me, because actually there isn't any spittoon. Do you understand?
It's a spittoon due to convention. This convention is accepted all
over the country, so it's spittoon. But there isn't any real ''spittoon.''
If somebody wants to call it a saucepan it can be a saucepan. It can
be whatever you call it. This is called ''concept.'' If we fully
know the spittoon, even if somebody calls it a saucepan there's no
problem. Whatever others may call it we are unperturbed because we
are not blind to its true nature. This is one who knows Dhamma.
Now let's come back to ourselves. Suppose somebody said, ''You're
crazy!'' or, ''You're stupid,'' for example. Even though it may
not be true, you wouldn't feel so good. Everything becomes difficult
because of our ambitions to have and to achieve. Because of these
desires to get and to be, because we don't know according to the truth,
we have no contentment. If we know the Dhamma, are enlightened to
the Dhamma, greed, aversion and delusion will disappear. When we understand
the way things are there is nothing for them to rest on.
Why is the practice so difficult and arduous? Because of desires.
As soon as we sit down to meditate we want to become peaceful. If
we didn't want to find peace we wouldn't sit, we wouldn't practice.
As soon as we sit down we want peace to be right there, but wanting
the mind to be calm makes for confusion, and we feel restless. This
is how it goes. So the Buddha says, ''Don't speak out of desire,
don't sit out of desire, don't walk out of desire.... Whatever you
do, don't do it with desire.'' Desire means wanting. If you don't
want to do something you won't do it. If our practice reaches this
point we can get quite discouraged. How can we practice? As soon as
we sit down there is desire in the mind.
It's because of this that the body and mind are difficult to observe.
If they are not the self nor belonging to self then who do they belong
to? It's difficult to resolve these things, we must rely on wisdom.
The Buddha says we must practice with ''letting go,'' isn't it?
If we let go then we just don't practice, right?... Because we've
let go.
Suppose we went to buy some coconuts in the market, and while we were
carrying them back someone asked:
''What did you buy those coconuts for?''
''I bought them to eat.''
''Are you going to eat the shells as well?''
''No.''
''I don't believe you. If you're not going to eat the shells then
why did you buy them also?''
Well what do you say? How are you going to answer their question?
We practice with desire. If we didn't have desire we wouldn't practice.
Practicing with desire is tanhā. Contemplating
in this way can give rise to wisdom, you know. For example, those
coconuts: Are you going to eat the shells as well? Of course not.
Then why do you take them? Because the time hasn't yet come for you
to throw them away. They're useful for wrapping up the coconut in.
If, after eating the coconut, you throw the shells away, there is
no problem.
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